Good day to you all. I abruptly left Florida on February 13, 2026 due to a family emergency. I posted a brief message across my social media pages to explain my absence. While I was gone, my partner lost his job in a massive layoff at his company, one of our dogs had to be put down, and my partner’s mom passed away. Before all this happened, I was helping one of my best friends because he has stage 4 cancer. I had to drop everything with him to go to the emergency and I haven’t come to grips with that. It’s been a lot.

I’m not going to go into detail, but I will tell you that a close family member was the victim of a violent crime. This person has been in the ICU for over a month. I spent about three and a half weeks with them at the hospital and with family. It has been extremely scary and stressful. They have had several surgeries, with another scheduled, and ups and downs. We are hopeful, but their fate is still unknown. Leaving them in the ICU was one of the most difficult things I’ve had to do.

My granddog Daisy became very ill and was taken to the vet. My daughter had to make the very difficult decision to put her down and end her suffering. She was very much a loved and cherished member of our family. I sat in the ICU in another state and told her goodbye over FaceTime. My heart is so broken. I didn’t get to see her or hug her before she crossed the rainbow bridge.

My partner’s mom Sandra was diagnosed with brain cancer what seems like not long ago. While I was away she was admitted to the hospital, and then to hospice. I wasn’t there to tell her goodbye. She passed peacefully. I returned home from my family emergency and left to her funeral in Georgia three days later. Saying goodbye at her services was not how I wanted it to go. I hope she understood why I wasn’t there. We had a lot of good times going to theme parks and on Disney cruises. She will be deeply missed by family and friends who loved her very much.

Since returning home, my best friend has taken a turn for the worst. He is losing his battle with cancer. We have gone on so many adventures, eaten so many meals, talked about so many things, and shared so many hugs. I will continue to do everything I can for him because he is a wonderful person. I’m not ready for what the future is bringing.

I know people will say I shouldn’t feel guilty, but I do for having to leave my family member in the ICU. I do for not being here to say goodbye to Daisy and Sandra. The guilt I have for leaving my friend when he needs me most. I hope that I can come to terms with it someday. I am already a person who suffers from mad anxiety and sometimes crippling depression. When I say they are extreme right now, it doesn’t begin to describe it.

I tell you this because I am still unemployed in terms of a “real” job and am returning to work on Theme Park MoJu. I ask your forgiveness if I make an error or am unclear in my thoughts. To say I’m struggling is a gross understatement. I’m hoping for kindness if you point out errors, it will be much appreciated.

Posting will probably be sporadic because my mental health is in the shitter. I’ll do what I can when I am able. I will be fighting hard to post with the joy I have in the past.

Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me and who has taken the time to read this. I probably overshared, but I feel like an explanation was deserved. Many of you have stuck by me and supported me for many years. I’ve always appreciated it.

Please go into the world with kindness. Be someone’s smile. Get to know people you are told to fear or hate. Hug people. Tell people you love them. Love yourself.

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